The Bird in Front of Me

 

Image by Jeremy Hynes at Unsplash

Sometimes birdwatching begins with a sound I might have missed. My Merlin app alerts me to a bird nearby, and I stop to listen. Then I start looking. Merlin gives me a possibility; I want to see the bird for myself.

That can take a while, especially with small birds. I search the branches where I think the sound came from. A leaf moves. Something flits into view and disappears again. I try to keep track of where it went, shifting my attention from one branch to the next until I catch another glimpse.

There isn’t much room in my mind for anything else while I’m doing this. If I look away, I may lose the bird. If I let my thoughts wander, I may miss the detail that helps me identify it. For those few minutes, I’m listening and watching as closely as I can.

And when I finally see the bird, the questions begin. What is it doing? Why did it choose that spot? Is it looking for food, watching something I haven’t noticed, or simply passing through? Identifying it often feels less like an answer than the start of a longer conversation.

That’s one of the things I love about watching birds. It draws me out of whatever I was thinking about and into what is happening right in front of me. I can’t follow a warbler through the leaves while also rehearsing tomorrow’s tasks. The bird keeps moving, and for a moment, I move with it.

I don’t always get a clear look. Sometimes I never find the bird Merlin heard. But even then, I’ve stopped. I’ve listened to the sounds around me and searched a tree more carefully than I otherwise would have. Often I notice something else while I’m looking.

People talk about trying to be more present, and I understand why. My mind is as capable as anyone’s of wandering into the past or racing ahead. Birdwatching offers me a wonderfully practical way back: Where did it go? Is that it? What is it doing now?

The bird doesn’t wait for me to finish a thought. It asks me to pay attention while it’s here. And for a little while, the rest of the world falls away.

Ellen Brown

Ellen Brown is a science writer and bird artist based in Duluth, Minnesota, who combines fine art and nature writing to support bird conservation. She holds a BA in Environmental Studies from the University of Minnesota and an MA in Science Writing from Johns Hopkins University. She previously served as nonfiction editor for Delmarva Review and currently reviews science poetry for the online journal Consilience.

https://EllenBrownArts.com
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